…but I don’t think they even know that I blog, so I’ll take my chances.
There’s this odd feeling I get nowadays when I lie to my parents. It’s like I know I’m going to disappoint them and eventually ruin the fairly good relationship I’ve been keeping with them, but right now my life isn’t going the way I want it to, so I’ve been pretty distant. When I do need to come into contact, however, I’ve been so far lying and hiding and being stand-offish about school and people and college and other matters. I don’t like it at all, but if I started telling them the truth about stuff they’d be screaming at me again like they used to. And I never liked it when they screamed at me; I never liked it when they turned unreasonable.
And I’m blogging about this now because just this morning I told them I’d be at choir practice when I in fact had lunch with friends at Trinoma (something they say I shouldn’t be doing yet, which is stupid, really). And then I told them I’d be working overnight at a classmate’s house for a project, when in fact I attended a friend’s debut party.
I just got home from there, and it’s really really late. I told my mom I decided not to overnight and instead went home with a friend; the trust in her voice was slightly perturbing.
I don’t tell my parents about my life because I’ve never liked the way they treated me. They, in all honesty and objectivity, are close-minded, prejudiced, conservative people who do nothing in life but to tell me what I should and shouldn’t do. I’ve had to put up with 16 years of them and their double standards; I’ve tried speaking out and all it’s ever earned me were slaps across the face and three-day scream lectures. So I shut up. I avoid them, I lie and do the things I think are right behind their back.
And believe me, I do a LOT of things behind a LOT of people’s backs.
my mom’s also close-minded, prejudiced, and conservative.. nakakainis nga eh. when i try to defend my part, mas lalo lang akong pinapagalitan.. hayyy.. i try to be indifferent kapag nasa bahay ako..
parents talaga…! -_________-
Not as prejudicely close-minded as TA’s, I hope.
literal slaps?!
they’re better than nothing though. unlesss…
THe funny thing is I actually took my Mom to the Philippine Blog Awards…
I think ur parents just want the best for u kya they maintain double standards. Maybe, u also have to stand on their shoes once in awhile to be able to understand them better. I think it’s also not good for you—handling a secret life must certainly be tough 4 u. I guess u should try to be open-minded. You tried speaking out?? but are u sure u didn’t offend them by doing so that’s why, u earned slaps nd scream lectures?? I suggest that u communicate with them rather than avoid them, understand them nd don’t ever plant anger towards them (in tagalog, ‘wag kang magtanim ng galit’)… Lying is also a bad thing to do. I also suggest that you spend a lot of time wid them and not be like a rebel towards them. I suggest seeing things in the positive light…at least your parents care for u..at least they don’t take u for granted like what some parents do to their children. Also remember, “Honor ur father nd ur mother”… I decided to post this bcoz I wanna give a friendly advice, even though we aren’t really friends…I hope ul take it positively. :D